Faith Fridays. a reprieve?

God’s will. Want to be in it. Almost never sure what it is. Always grateful for a tiny glimpse.



When we began this adoption process, I was working 35 hours a week at our church. I loved my job and I was getting ready to move into another job at the church that I knew I would love even more. As we progressed with the adoption, however, I began to have doubts about working full time. I was reading so much material about attachment and bonding and an uneasy feeling began to creep into my heart. LaRue and I began to talk about the reality of my schedule and how it would affect our whole family. We decided that I could not work full-time and I had to turn down the new position. A couple of months after making that decision, our church had to do some layoffs. The position that I had chosen to stay in was eliminated.



The fear and doubt flooded in. What does this mean?? Am I to stay home full time? Find another job? We were still months away from traveling to get Jacob – what was I to do with this time at home?



One thing we knew for certain – we had to sell the house. LaRue began to get the place ready to go on the market. I wasn’t happy about it at all. I felt incredibly guilty – like I wasn’t contributing to the family anymore. I had always worked and I went through a real identity crisis during those first months at home.



Of course, God had it all in His hands. He knew where I needed to be when Jacob came home and He spent those months working on my heart to bring me there.



We put our house on the market in July of last year. We knew that it would have to be a short-sale. After years of having perfect credit, it was a hard pill to swallow. It was the only way that I would be able to stay home full-time with Jacob. We knew that this was the right decision for our family.



In the past seven months we have had two contracted buyers. Both have walked away from the sale just prior to opening escrow. It has been a crazy rollercoaster. LaRue and I are closer than ever. We cry together; we pray together. Together we have vowed to weather whatever God allows – together. It’s been an awesome time for our marriage.



Resigned to foreclosure, we moved out of the house. God brought us to a great rental. I’ll tell that story another time. We have been so blessed by this house and our new landlords.



Last week, we got a new contract on the house. It is the eleventh hour; many things will have to line up perfectly in order for this sale to go through. Yesterday, we received word that the buyers had opened escrow. Paperwork is being pushed through at record speed. We have hope that this will actually happen.



Conversations. Next steps. We are beginning to look to the future again.



A reprieve? Perhaps. God’s plan. Certainly.



I have this stirring in my heart. I believe that we have seen a glimpse of our future. So many blessings. We know that we have been blessed for a purpose. It is never far from our hearts and minds.



We are SO ready to move into this next phase of our lives. SO READY!



WooHoo!!! Bring it on, God!